MISS forever alone? am I?

Lately, my friends have been getting a boyfriend, or at least someone special in their lives they consider as a crush. Then there’s lil’ ol’ me, Miss Forever Alone. I don’t even know why I’m writing this post right now when I’ve told myself that I shouldn’t have a crush or something remotely close to a boyfriend until I finish study at least. But I’ve been hoping that you come to me soon. Because to be honest, I’ve been waiting for you my entire life. I have been single for 9months after im broke up with someone that I really really really LOVE . 

I guess I should clarify that when I write boyfriend, I also mean best friend.  I don’t want to be yours just for the sake of being able to say I belong to someone. Everyone starts of as friends at first. There’s a reason I’ve been waiting for you..you aren’t going to be just a phase or a crush.  I’m too careful with my heart to let that happen. Please don’t get frustrated at me if it takes me a while to tell you things that I usually bury deep inside of myself.  I’m just not used to being able to trust someone so completely.  

I’d be shocked if I were to ever call you mine. I know all the girls want you, and who wouldn’t? You’re smart, funny, not to mention handsome. You have everything I like in a guy ;)  We’re complete opposites, but we have a ton of stuff in common. Yeah, I’m that outgoing, bubbly chick always talking and you’re that quiet, mysterious guy (which I totally love about you).

I just want you to know that I’ve waited so long to find you to hangout with me,I want to forget about time, forget about worries, I want to have pictures of us together.  I want to look into your eyes and see a future that brings me peace.  To find the easy silence, the peaceful quiet. I want you  to hold my hand . I want you to watch love story movies with me. I won’t be the girlfriend who makes you pay for everything, I won’t expect you to be the perfect guy that does everything right. You don’t have to be Prince Charming.

I’m not very pretty, I hope that doesn’t bother you. Oh, and by the way, I’m a hopeless romantic. So, you’re gonna have to be a bit sappy if you want to impress me. Also, I can read people, so don’t even try to hide anything from me. It’s pointless. It may seem like the things in my life don’t affect me, but they do. You can never tell me that I’m beautiful too many times, and don’t say I love you right away, because I may not believe it. I love to have excuses to dress up. Never be afraid to show affection, even in public, if I do get uncomfortable I will tell you. I understand that people get into fights but please, just don’t hurt me. I've had it enough in my short life. 

I may be moody, and not know how to explain why I’m upset at times. There are periods of time when I’m too depressed, and I can be hyperactive. You’re going to be so annoyed at me and will probably be cursing yourself for ever deciding to date me. I’m immature, too opinionated and I cry over sappy movies. But I promise I’ll care for you, and love you for you. All I want is to hold your hand and be there for you when you need me. I also want to bake you cookies when you’re having a rough day. Let me be your shoulder to lean on..

I know you’ll be sweet and kind to me, and when we fight I’ll back away for a bit longer than most people, but I promise I’ll stay.

I’m not the perfect girlfriend, but I’ll try my 

hardest for you.

Love me for me, and please be true.

For us to last, you can’t be my whole life, but I want you to be the best part of it.  I don’t want a certain romance, a certain setting.  All I need is a heart that is kind and open to what I want to give it. Because that’s just how my personality works. All I need is love, and all I've ever wanted is you.

To be completely honest I don’t know what I want. I’m really indecisive. I will most likely try and push you away because that’s how I try to keep people from hurting me. I can’t promise that loving me will be easy, but I’m hoping that you stick it out. I know that I may seem so tough but really I am one of the most sensitive people you will ever meet. When I love someone I love them with everything I have. I won’t give into peer pressure, so please don’t try and pressure me into situations.

I know that you’re somewhere out there waiting for me the same way I am here waiting for you. I will wait for you as long as it takes because I know that you are perfect for me. i'm waiting for you mr. RIGHT :)

VALENTINE'S day(HAPPY FOREVER ALONE DAY!)

ohhh so its valentine day today? okay all I can say is I feel pathetic because I'm single :/
My Valentines day may have been not so great, but one thing is for sure is that I realized I love myself. Being alone for this day isn’t all that bad because it just showed me that I honestly have to accept that you’ll be alone sometimes. And being alone, you tend to learn a lot about yourself. Instead of losing yourself for someone else, you just focus on you mainly. Although the day may be a reminder of why you’re single, why that one guy/girl dumped you, or an old love. It still can have a positive outcome. I realized today that I love myself. And in order to love someone else, you have to learn to love yourself. For all your flaws, for all your past experiences, hurts, etc. Knowing that you’re fine, you’re a good catch, that you are just the most amazing person ever without the assumed cocky attitude. And then, you can say “I am ready for love.” So for all you single people who were crying, feeling bad, sad, depressed, “life sucks”,“i’m flying s0lo”, etc. Remember to take this time or anytime to reflect on your life & that you don’t need anyone to complete you, and that love will come. May not be on your time, but sooner or later, you’ll see it, you’ll feel it, and you’ll fall in it. Just like the saying goes, “You never know.” :)

Dear girls,

“Date a guy who waits. Date that someone who has the patience to be with you no matter how long it takes for you to make a decision to give that yes to his proposal. He can never let you go and will do whatever it takes just to have a stable and healthy relationship with you.

He is someone who has determination that makes him standout among the rest of the crowd. He believes that patience is an important virtue.

Find the guy who is willing to wait. That person who knows the value of time and uses time wisely. You can never go wrong with a guy who knows time management and someone who knows how to set his priorities in life.

Date that person who understands your decision on when you’re ready to get married, to have kids or to be able to make major decisions about your life. He doesn’t disregard time in the relationship.

He is a guy who doesn’t rush things. He takes the baby steps but he is sure of what road to take and how will he take his journey on that road. He believes that what is supposed to happen, will happen in the right place and in the right time.”

all I want is

To know how it feels to be in someone’s arms again. I want to know how it feels to 

have someone’s lips against mine again. I want to know how it feels to be held 

tightly again. I want to know how it feels to be in love again. I want to know how it 

feels to be important to someone again. I want to know how it feels to be loved 

again. I want to know how it feels to be told ‘I love you’ again. Oh, how I miss 

having those great feelings..

When you love someone you do everything for him/her 

with love and it shows how sincere you are. That’s why 

everything you do is to make him/her happy so it will 

not cause something to hurt him/her. Maybe sometimes 

you will encounter some wrong decision but remember. 

When a person love someone it may have wrong ways 

but it never be forever because love is never be wrong 

it always true and lovely.love keeps no record of 

wrongs. Maybe love is not in a perfect situation. but 

being inlove with somebody is not a question. 

Everyone is freely to be loved and be inlove <3

Life after SPM :)

Finally I got something to write!
Hello readers! I'm back again, well nothing much thou I'm just trying to make my blog looks better by updating everyday (if possible) Hahaha! *evil smile* So... At this time, usually I'm already lying on my bed and ready to sleep. But nowadays, wait I mean the day before SPM starts. Those days I always stay at home and never go school right, yeah I can say that almost everyday I sleep late -.- So as you guys can see my dark circles is very dark & my eye bags is very heavy. What to do, I can't sleep that early anymore. I just can't sleep before 12am omg I must be crazy. D: 
So as you guys can see, this post is mostly about my life after SPM. To be honest, there's no difference between the life before SPM lah. It's still the same, rot at home everyday. Actually I wanted to go and look for some part-time job and actually I already found one but... The salary is too low and it's too far for my dad -_- He said too far already nobody can take care of me. OMGGGGG. You know how is the feel of rotting at home everyday?! You know how lifeless am I?! You know how bored am I?! You know I'm like talking to the wall everyday -_-; My gosh.No work = no money. Sit at home no income one leh hello! Alamamak!
And this is my current life? Life after SPM is even more bored you know... Haih. and now i'am busy with my driving lesson :) I got L alreadyy.. can't wait for the JPJ test and I hope I will past the test n got the P license :)

Happy birthday my dear superman!!

happy birthday daddy! Thank you for EVERYTHING, dad! I pray to God every single day to grant you the strong faith & strength in life.. I’ll always be your little girls.~ I love you so much daddy! ❤ me n my sibling made a surprise for daddy in the early morning today before daddy go to work. and he like O.o? OMG .hahaha. kinda funny.lol God bless you daddy! :))